I was really tired when I got home last night and my intention was to go right to sleep. But there was a nagging to get out my Bible study and spend time with the Lord. I kept bringing up (to myself) my life verse: “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matt. 11:28) I just wanted to go to sleep and get the rest I thought I needed.

I realized that sleep wouldn’t come until I was obedient. I turned the light back on and began to delve further into this week’s lesson, which is on holiness. A Scripture kind of jumped off the page at me: But just as He who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do;  for it is written: ‘Be holy, because I am holy.’” (1 Peter 1:15-16)

I read the note in my Life Application Study Bible which said: “After people commit their lives to Christ, they usually still feel a pull back to their old ways. Peter tells us to be like our heavenly Father–holy in everything we do. Holiness means being totally devoted and dedicated to God, set aside for His special use and set apart from sin and its influence. We’re to be set apart and different, not blending in with the crowd, yet not being different just for the sake of being different.”

As I spent time pondering what the Lord wanted me to “hear” and the wisdom He wanted to impart, the Holy Spirit brought up my morning routine to me. Our schedule at home has changed, and the Lord has impressed upon me that I shouldn’t tell my husband in the morning that I’m studying the Word and ask that he be quiet. For those of you who don’t know, my hubby truly doesn’t have much ability for quiet.

As I read the next part of this note, a light bulb clicked in my mind: “What makes us different are God’s qualities in our lives. Our focus and priorities must be His. All this is in direct contrast to our old ways (1:14). We cannot become holy on our own, but God gives us His Holy Spirit to help us obey and to give us power to overcome sin. Don’t use the excuse that you can’t help slipping into sin. Call on God’s power to free you from sin’s grip.”

Sin is anything that God either tells us to do (and we don’t) or that He tells us not to do (and we do). Scripture says, “In everything you do, put God first, and He will direct you and crown your efforts with success.” (Prov 3:6 TLB) As I said, I’ve been struggling with how to be obedient to the Lord in putting Him first and in respecting my husband. It has felt like I would have to honor one commandment over another. Last night I “heard” that it isn’t up to me to figure out the way, it’s up to me to get out of the way and allow the Lord to make the way. It’s time for me to stop trying to figure it out and just let God….

It was very late before I understood what the Lord wanted to tell me, and consequently I am on just a little over 3-1/2 hours of sleep. I gave my burden to the Lord. I took my hands off of it, repented of my pride in trying to figure it out for myself (in my woeful inadequacy), and finally went to sleep just a little before 1am.

You know what it amazing? Even though I didn’t sleep many hours, I do feel rested this morning. Even more amazing? I had to wake my hubby up before I left for work to kiss him goodbye. I had all the time in the world to spend with the Lord this morning. I was able to spend time in prayer and in His Word, praising Him for reminding me yet again to let go.  But God… “Honor the Lord for the glory of His name. Worship the Lord in the splendor of His holiness.” (Ps. 29:2 NLT)